And it all ENDS TONIGHT
Every decision has its consequences. Every consequence leads to a decision. So what smth turns out to be is actually because of what has happened.
So when you're hafing the just whack mentality then smth comes along and in that matter of seconds, you begin to seriously doubt whether is your decision right, do you pause to stop and think or still just whack? As we all know, minyi is blur, stupid, gullible, sotong,
aboveboard, artless, callow, candid, confiding, countrified, credulous, forthright, frank, fresh, green*, guileless, gullible, harmless, ignorant, impulsive, ingenuous, innocent, innocuous, instinctive, jejune, lamb*, natural, open, original, patsy*, plain, simple, simple-minded, sincere, spontaneous, square, sucker*, trusting, unaffected, unjaded, unpretentious, unschooled, unsophisticated, unsuspecting, unsuspicious, untaught, unworldly, virgin, wide-eyed*
just whack. And now, she's tinking, there's a reason why pple dun want smth and you still go for it when you jolly well know that this might happen. So now that its happened, you'd tink : "god, minyi, you're such a bloody idiot, total dumbass."
But then this will put an end to many things. At least you know you've got to start looking for... So let's see if this will yield anything.
I tink having no sch now sucks in the sense that you've too much time to think and the only thing that affects you now is people! You still haf grades and tests to worry/ emo you the last time but now the only variable factor is people. Darn, i hate that man. Shiatz, i'll stop here and find somewhere else to write these down.
On a lighter note, the challenge starts today. Exciting.
Just so you know
Shouldn't love you but I want you
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away
I shouldn't love you but
I want you I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away
And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop
[Chorus:]
Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it I won't sit around, I can't let him win now
Thought you should know I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to I just gotta say it all
Before I go Just so you know
It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way
And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop
[Chorus]
This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize It was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here...been waiting here
Its like the feeling has come back again. Laugh, laugh, laugh then lonely, lonely, lonely. Emo, emo, emo since fri. Dunno why, got eat, got laugh, got play, got work, got exercise but feels like an empty shell. And I dun like awkward situatuions la. That day like shit, makes me feel even more like shit.
And my stupid laptop keeps crashing. There are like a ton of songs i want to download but can't, Dammnit.
I'll just go sleep now then pia all out tomolo till every last ounce of energy is sapped. Too tired to tink, too tired to care... My idea of fun. Yeah, but always works.
Ok, I tink i go walk walk first, too angsty to sleep now.
lame, lamer, lamer-est
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Wheeee
Yesterday kbox, jumping pretty fun. Then chups treated us to neoprints. Thanks chups! (= But its a bit flop though. Ha. Went bugis with joei to jalan jalan then went home. So funny, hahha, my house no instant noodles so took from her house and get jumintha to cook it then watch tv.
And GUESS WHAT???
My mom allowed me to go taiwan!!!
I'm soo sooo fricking happy now. Ahahahhahha!
I'm so excited. I tink i'm going to hyperventilate. And i'm so happy to tink that i'm going to hyperventilate. Ahahhahha!
And all this couldn't haf happened without the help of someone. Zy and her mom.
Her mom is really DARN POWERFUL man. Her words, omg, those words haf such an enlightening effect on everyone who has heard them. Fortunately, i took down everything she said and memorised then before launching into a DISCUSSION( hahha, she taught me this word) wif my mom. It really takes one mom to know anothr. LOL!Eh, zy, i tink your mom shld be a negotiator or smth, otherwise her talent will be wasted. Hahahha!
Then maybe yi hsuan can bring us around taiwan. HA! And this is so saddening. Yi hsuan is going to leave and never come back. WHY? WHY? WHY? HUH? HUH? HUH?
How can you bear to leave us just like this, flung us into an abyss of misery and make us wallow in despair over you imminent absence??? HUH? HUH? HUH?
I miss you loads la, you idiot.
Wah, my emotions are changing 180 degress as i'm typing this. Anyway, today was supposed to be one hell of a day. I'm supposed to go down to help in the morn then tuition in the noon then dance at night. But everything is like poof! cancelled.
On a happier note, there's coach carter tonight! Imba motivating show. Wheeee!
Ok, actually i typed a lot more for this post to entertain mfen's request but my laptop die-ded on me. So bye-bye for now.
If only, If only....
Wheee! Today's a happy day!
Ha, i woke up darn early this morning and went for a walk IN THE RAIN with chowchow. Fun getting wet and muddy. Yup, then went causuarina with daddy and mommy for prata breakfast having nothing to do all day, went to buy loads of vcds to entertain myself. 4 stacks, abt 40 discs, but then watching it alone is like damn meaningless la. After 3 hrs, then its like soooo veryyy borrinnggg. No one to talk to and laugh along with. The whole house only me and chowchow and the maid. As you can see, there's a communication problem. Talk to the maid like so weird then I can't bark, well, actually i can, if you make me angry. (pun!)
Fortunately, daddy and mummy are going grocery shopping, so i tag along. Went to AMK hub and zy is right, the shopping there is pretty good. Guess what i bought?!
Ahahhahha, yup, my new toy!
Its the TRIPLE-ACTION-SPIDERMAN BLASTER! How cool is that? Like WOW!!
You can shoot REAL WEB out of it, SHOOT WATER and SHOOT DARTS! Cool!
I've already planned how to play with it. Just imagine xinyi studying at the study table in the study room.... She's got 3 tests tomolo and haven't finish studying, not to mention a pile of hmw and those dumb SIA projects. Stress level is rocketing... Then I'll just sit at my table opposite her and stare at her... With my spiderman blaster pumped up with web, water and darts. Stare, stare and stare then suddenly shoot a jet of water, well, of course not at her, Siao! ltr she complain to my mummy HOW? So the trick is to blast a jet of water that whizzz past her ears. First the right ear then the left ear, constantly picking up speed. AHAHAHHAHA! She'll get so mad and even more stressed up that she will begin to cry. Then i'll laugh even louder. AHAHHAHA! So fun!
And xinyi being xinyi, she'll surely complain. So what now? Dun forget this is a triple action blaster. You must be wondering why I only shoot water, yeah? Well, as i've said, she will complain, so for telling tales, I've saved the web for her face. Coolios! Blast a string of web right smack into her face then pull back real hard. AHAHHAHAHHA! This is really fun! AHAHAHHAHA!
Of course, as expected I can probably only shoot her a few times before she start screaming at me and complaining. So how now, brown cow?
WELL, FIND A TARGET THAT CAN'T COMPLAIN!
AHAHHAHAHHA! Chase after chowchow with my spiderman blaster until she's yelping and so tired that she can't run anymore that she's got to hide under the sofa. AHAHHAHHAA! And since she's so small, i'll try and see if i can lift her after covering her in web. You know? just like how spiderman lift objects across the room with his web. HA!
Hmmm, guess what? I've been contemplating for days if I shld go to SPCA to work as a volunteer. You know, to give back to the society.... Looks like i really shld....
Anyway, after this 2 targets, the next three will be my neighbours. HA! Wah lau, for 2 days consecutively spend 4 hrs each day playing in my house thrashing up the whole place. HA, but pretty fun.
Aiya, and just now when i was at AMK hub, i couldn't help but keep imagining how great life would be if we're all still in AJ now. We could like go there after sch to eat and shop ard before going home after sch. Cos' there's fish and co there and all that's lacking is just pasta mania. HAHA, if you know what i mean... Then on wed after trg can eat there instead of always eating ban mian at NYP everytime. Or during the mugging period we cld haf gone there instead of always pizza hut or ba-chor mee after mugging at amk library.
Then if JC life is like secondary sch which lasts for 4 yrs, then i can come home with joei from sch everyday. Then can mug together so more motivation because she so muggerish. AHAHHAHA! Or at least i no need to keep checking the chinese dictionary everytime i do chinese hmw becos there'll be a live dictionary beside me. Ha, then perhaps can get her to pei me to pon every tues so i'll not be the only one always ponning on tues. Can distract cheng's attention. Oh then can share math tution, 1 tutor 2 persons, cheaper wad, the qns we've would prolly be the same, after all same tutorial. Hahhha, tink too much.
Oh, anyway, i dunno why but my phone's blutooth ain't working so i can't post the pic of the earthworm we cut up. Anyway, the conclusion of our mini experiment was that when you cut the worm into half, you'd get 2 wriggling pieces but after looking at the worm very carefully there's only 1 head so theoretically the 2nd half ie. the tail is dead. So its much like your lizard's tail that continues twitching after getting severed.
But when we cut the worm into half, it leaves a trail of black substance behind from its wound as it crawled along. So is that blood? Do worms haf red blood cells at all? Then since the lizard can grow its tail back after it is severed, can the worm grow even longer? Sadly, the worm was thrown away and i'll never get to know the answers. But its interesting to see how so many qns can arise from smth so insignificant yet so important to our eco-system.
And oh, zy's latest post on clubbing is damn interesting and funny. LOL! But erm... there're some parts which i don't understand what she's trying to say, like the height part thingy.
Mfen, I next week go find you? HAHA, after you hinted so explicitly. And you can introduce me to roy and maybe his bro. My cup of tea, mmmm. HAHAH, and the lians haf a new blog. My god, and one of the posts, sharon says her childhood heroine is sailormoon.
ROFL!!!
Sailormoon! HAHAHHA! Somehow the thought of her worshipping sailormoon is very funny. If it's someone else, i wouldn't laugh as much, but.....
AHAHAHHAHHAH!
Save me, i can't breathe.
Ha, and chups asked me to organise kbox this weekend, so pple, tell me when you're free.
And last but not least, to our dearest bullet-train whose bday falls so luckily on friday the 13th,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!
I can't get robin to call you like what you'd done for wf, but then since its friday the 13th, maybe a certain jason will come looking for you. Remember, don't off your lights tonight, for you'll never know when.....
you'll never know when......
AHAHHAHAHHAHAH!!!!
I walked past so many times that i'm getting sick
Its nice to walk at night. You know, the kind of nights at around 1-2am when the whole world's asleep? And when tv and the internet bores you? There are over 60 channels and youtube but man, they can get really boring. Now this is really getting me worried. Outings and whatever.... the mood just ain't there. It seems that nothing is exciting.
Anyway, its just walking and walking and talking to yourself. And occasionally with this companion whose main goal in life, it seems, is to fertilise every blade of grass she sees.
Anyway, i was just thinking that i'm really lost. Lost somewhere in this world with no place to call my own. I dunno what i'm working towards to everyday. Things just keep getting more and more meaningless when you dun haf to tink and plan.
It seems that i'm just waiting and waiting and waiting. This is so scary yet so super exciting when you haf no idea where you're heading towards to.
I tink i'm a bit dyslexic. I can't express what i want to say in words and i keep spelling stuff wrongly.
Okay, now i forgot what i want to write.
Okay, let's see what comes to my mind now. Yup! Haf you heard of psycological warfare?
Basically, it is a very useful tool.
I just realised how devastating it can be and how much potential it contains.
For example, you want to go for smth that you need permission for, so how?
When you wake up in the morning, first thing when your mom is still sleeping, sit beside her then you go...." mommy, can i....."
Then go brush your teeth and during breakfast, go again " mommy can i......"
During the meal, the only conversation topic you allow will be what you want.
This goes for lunch and dinner and supper. Everytime you talk, the first words that you utter would be "mommy, can i....."
Just imagine, getting bombarded by the same qn a few hundred times a day.... Now this is just the first strategy of psychological warfare.
Of course, you've got to inject humour and keep beating around the bush, then what? Keep whining? Retard.
You're probably just gonna annoy and remember your goal, you're not here to annoy, you're here to get what you wanted.
Somehow i tink its just a case of how badly you wanted smth. Sometimes the anticipation is more fun than the real thing.
Oh, and today, i'd told my tutee the other time during science lesson that if you cut an earthworm into two pieces, you'd get two earthworms wriggling away at both ends. I read that somewhere from some novel long ago. That novel was fiction so the qn is if you cut the earthworm into two pieces will the earthworm just die or you'd really get 2 earthworms. What if you cut them into 3 or 4 pieces? How do earthworms reproduce by the way?
Very interesting.
Well, today my tutee got her maid to catch a few earthworms from her garden. So i told her to find a scalpel and forceps tonight. Tomorrow, we'll get some answers.
Tuition can be really fun and interesting at times. Tomorrow will be experimental lab session. HAHAHA!
On second thoughts, i shld bring some gloves along.
Angel Of Music
Anyway, the phantom was awesome. I tink its like what cheng said before, carthasis (correct spelling?), you can feel the pain, the anguish, the solitude. You can hear it in his voice. Okay, maybe only me, because i'm the only one who cried. Its so malu-ing can?! stupid phantom, made me cry so much. And christine, my god, i'm so afraid the glass on the chandelier will crack or smth.
And Happy Birthday to my mum. Don't haf time to get her anything so cancel tuition last min.(and i tink the mum's angry with me, cos i already missed 3 lessons last 2 weeks becos' of miscommunication and driving. HOW, HOW, HOW? I'm so worried i'll get fired.) Anyway, went down to taka with daddy and got her flowers, cake and a bag from coach. And i'm so freaking broke now. HOW, HOW HOW? I'm now worried that i won't haf any moolah left for shopping on fri and sun.
Yup, momsy is very touched and happy with her gift. I tink if i'm a guy, many woman will swoon over me. LOL! Well, cos everything's my idea cos' my dad's the most unromantic guy ever. I told him that if he's my husband, i'd haf dumped him long ago. Ahahhaha. Nah, he's nice AND he belongs to my mom. HA!
I tink my mom is one great woman. In my opinion, she's the greatest woman alive in this world. I'm always the one who made her mad the most, make her cry the most, make her scream the most, make her worry the most, be the one who has to enter a hospital the most. No, i'm not sickly or anything. I just had to ride my bicycle down a very steep slope at 50miles/hr and wanting to experience an adrenaline rush, i don't brake so i rammed into this lamp post and flew out knocking against it, almost breaking my rib cage and destroying my bike. Yeah, stuff like that. I'm also the one with the lousier grades, the louder one, the more obnoxious one, the ruder one and so on on on. Compare me with everyone around me and you'd realise i'm like totally flawed. Shit, now as i'm typing this, i really feel flawed. LOL!
Anyway, this is one woman who has LIVED.
In fact out of her many achievements, i personally tink and i'm sure many will agree as well that she gave birth to this really beautiful, smart and charismatic character called minyi. Ahahhahha!
Okay, i'm very tired. There are many old old pics i want to upload but its very LECHEY!!
AND MISS YAP ZHENYIN COPIED MY STRATEGY BY PRINTING FLYERS LOOKING FOR HER OWN STUDENTS. NOW WONDER SHE CALLED ME AND ASK ABOUT SO MANY THINGS!!!!
Belief is Power
300 was pretty kick-ass. Its like watching a comedy. LOL! I laughed till my stomach pain just now at the escalator there and almost lost my balance talking abt xerxes who is damn ah gua, giving javanese massage and the cute little ball. LOL!
Anyway, minyi has been inspired pretty much recently by certain pple, certain stuff. Esp one person. ____ has shown minyi what passion/belief in smth can translate into. And that is real imba power.
All that believing, despite losing, taking pride in whatever she does, working for what she believes in. When she lost that race, she lost it with great humility. She contends that its because there are more worthy opponents out there, opponents who won't be there without having the same dream.
One lesson drawn: Belief is Power
Minyi has a lot to learn from others. First thing first, i've got to work on will power, determination and... belief.
Visit www.minyi.youaremighty.com
Cool stuff. You've got to turn the music up real loud for better effects. I enjoyed myself very much watching that over and over and over again.I'm sure you'll feel the same way. LOL!
Mfen is retarded
How to become a better person? says:
wha. hey what's that???
*fen says:
whats what?
MiNyI says:
huh
*fen says:
hui ask whats that
How to become a better person? says:
oh... sha here issit????
*fen says:
no la
*fen says:
she's slping
MiNyI says:
wad wad's that
*fen says:
LOL
*fen says:
we could go on forever like this
MiNyI says:
yes, mfen i totally agree
*fen says:
lol
*fen says:
yup
*fen says:
whats whats whats that?
MiNyI says:
MiNyI says:
YES
MiNyI says:
wad;s wad;s wad's that
MiNyI says:
sorry
MiNyI says:
i forgot ather wad
*fen says:
yup
MiNyI says:
*fen says:
my turn
*fen says:
what's what's what's what's what's that/
How to become a better person? says:
okay okay...
How to become a better person? says:
*fen says:
lol
*fen says:
the retardness is contagious
MiNyI says:
Wad's wad's wad's wad's wad's wad's that
*fen says:
what'swhat'swhat'swhat'swhat'swhat's that?
*fen says:
what'swhat'swhat'swhat'swhat'swhat'swhat'swhat's that?
MiNyI says:
MiNyI says:
, mfen
MiNyI says:
you win liao
*fen says:
yeah
*fen says:
i win
*fen says:
what prize do i get?
I swear mfen is growing more and more retarded by the day. LOL!!